Saturday, November 29, 2008

Worst Mother Ever!

I'm the perfect mother when my kids are happy and well. I cringe and crumble at a cry that lasts more than a minute and am impatient when I'm woken from my sleep. Tonight was no exception.

Not even three hours ago I was gushing about how fortunate I am, how good my kids were today and how I need to remember my fortune. All of that sorta went out of the window tonight when Nathan woke up with gas pains. I couldn't will the patience with that. He screamed for 45 minutes before my mom took him. Now, I think he may be asleep,but not because of me.

I hate that I get frustrated so easily and that sense escapes my body at the drop of a hat. My kids will not grow up to look to me for comfort, but will look for it with their father or almost anyone else. I fear that they will think I don't love them, but that is certainly not the case.


100 Percent Cottam said...

oh, i'm the same way! i think most of us are!! especially during the night, for sure. i can deal with it fairly well all day, but my big kids have learned YOU DON'T WAKE UP MOM! simon better figure that out pretty soon...

tiburon said...

I can totally relate!

I think we all have those moments.

Don't beat yourself up over it :)

Courtney said...

Don't be so hard on yourself I think we are all like that. I do okay for the first hour after being woke up. More than an hour, I am a mess & it ain't pretty!